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| User: | angelzlust (6828063) 
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::Part of where I'm going, is knowing where I'm coming from::
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| Name: | AsH |
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| Website: | AsHeZ GrAcE |
| Location: | Eunice, Louisiana, United States |
| Birthdate: | 1983-02-18 |
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| angelzlust | @ | livejournal.com (Jabber) |
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| Bio: | *ALL GRAPHICS ARE CREDITED!! HOVER OVER IMAGE*
| The pain passes, but the beauty remains |
Trust is a dream in a thinkers world.What can I say? I carry with me scars & I am never satisfied so I'm always searching..plagued by wonder lust. Always asking "what if?" and often times, finding myself "stuck", I somehow manage to free myself. I occupy myself with MY LIFE and I embrace what good enters my world and am slowly learning how not to fall apart when it goes away...
My name is AsH and I'm 25 years old. First and foremost,I am a mom. I am also known as a best friend, bitch, keeper of vile insults and vicious tempers. I suppose sometimes I am just a nice girl...just sometimes, though. I tend to offend people but not with it being my intent. I'm very straight forward and to the point and am not obliged to play any games..especially those involving me having to guess.
I was born and raised in a small town in Southern Louisiana. I wouldn't say I had a good childhood. In fact, I wouldn't even say that I had one. I was the product of foolishness, for lack of better words. I grew up in an unstable home and I had far too many responsibilities at a very young age resulting in me being forced to grow up much too fast. Because of this I left home at 16 and landed myself in another small town in North Dakota.
Life handed me many obstacles and I often found myself torn down wondering, "What the hell am I supposed to be doing?" To make a VERY long story short, I married, got pregnant, and divorced in the matter of a year and a half. Experiencing many terrible things, I always succeeded in picking myself up and pushed on towards what needed to be done. I grew up into a strong, determined person and so for all those moments of being torn down I am thankful..
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::Ida Scott Taylor once wrote: Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.::
Gabriel Scott Bear (g00berz) graced the world with his presence on August 11, 2003. There is nothing like the first moment of laying eyes on your child and knowing where you're supposed to be and why you're there. I recall being overcome with a sense of calm and accomplishment. I knew my life had a reason.
Today, my Son is a gorgeous 4 year old little man who keeps me on my toes and is my push in life. The years go by fast now and sometimes I am still taken aback when I look at him and realize, "Hey, I made him!" and I smile thinking, "He's so perfect and sweet". Each passing day we are both learning and growing, together, building an Eternal Bond of mother and child. It's like a sweet melody. I'm completely in love with it.
::To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides::
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| The Future Belongs To Those Who Believe In The Beauty Of Their Dreams |
I am now currently a full-time student, working towards my associates in Healthcare Administration. Following my associates I will work towards getting my bachelors degree. I'm at so much peace with where my life is today. Things can only get better from here.
The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or blame. The gift is yours - it is an amazing journey - and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life really begins.
I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious Ambiguity.
I have my moments of chaos and I always find the beauty lost inside of it. I won't always be in search of the satisfaction that I seek. However, once I find it, I am scared that I won't know what to do with it. Until then, I leave my insane ramblings here. Maybe one day it will make me famous.
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| Memories:: | 59 entries |
| Pictures: | fewer than 10 public |
| Interests: | 138: abstract thought, abuse, acceptance, acid bath, adventure, adversity, agents of oblivion, art, beauty, blacksun, bliss, bodies, calmness, cars, confusion, cooking, courage, dancing, dax riggs, deadboy, depression, depth, dreaming, drinking, driving, embracing, enlightenment, excitement, fate, fear, fear&loathing, feeling, finding, gabriel, going out, grace, guns, habit, happiness, health, healthcare administration, honesty, house, html, humor, improvement, impulse, inspiration, intensity, jell-o, joy, karma, kissing, knowing, laughing, learning, life, love, lust, mail, meaning, meditation, modification, money, morals, motherhood, movies, music, mustangs, my son, mystery, nature, news, nursing, one tree hill, orgasmic, pain, painting, panic, peace, perfection, perversity, philosophy, photography, piercings, pilates, pineal gland, planting, pleasure, poetry, psychology, radiohead, reading, reality, roaming, sadness, satisfaction, scars, searching, seeing, seinfeld, self defense, self expression, serentiy, sex, shopping, sight, singing, sitting, sleeping, smiling, smoking, soul searching, star gazing, stars, storms, strength, tantra, tao, tattoos, teaching, touching, truth, uncertainty, understanding, uniqueness, vampires, walks, wandering, warmth, weapons, web design, wondering, working hard, working out, writing, www.dannycarey.org, yin&yang |
| Schools: | Eunice High School - Eunice, LA (1996 - 2001)
University of Phoenix - Phoenix, AZ (2008 - present)
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| Friends: |  | 17: | dalthius, diver_boy, dropfaith, heresyinc, ich_varte, inn0centlyl0st, kaitysma, kmonotjlo, leecifer75, liz_ness, munkysarehippys, neurophyre, spaceoomonkey, thelonedragon, trivial_conceit, umrandom, wumbawoman |  | 19: | _premadelayouts, _proudmomma, axia_uofphoenix, babyicons, cupidrejections, icon_tutorial, louisiana, lustiinq, oh_snapz, paidmembers, parenting, positive_parent, premade_ljs, proudmomma_chat, refuted, reversescollide, singleparents, texturize, wanderin_child |
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| Mutual Friends: | 14: dalthius, diver_boy, dropfaith, ich_varte, inn0centlyl0st, kaitysma, kmonotjlo, liz_ness, munkysarehippys, spaceoomonkey, thelonedragon, trivial_conceit, umrandom, wumbawoman |
| Account type: | Paid Account |
